Honey...it's all alright you're still 20...

Or 19 to be exact. Meeting new people everyday broaden one's horizons and it never gets tired. For someone as shy as me, I've really wasted most of my opportunities to learn more about the environment around me. Somewhat I become ignorant and trapped in my own world.

Although sometimes lah after returning back home, I can feel pretty exhausted, somemore with a dad who demands for some man power in the house, sometimes I wish I was born as a boy.

I still don't really know what to DO or WHAT to study. But I know that I enjoy MEETING people and learning about them. My colleagues a.k.a partners [?] as they call them; some of them are ROCK bands, ex-chefs, ex-lecturers and students.

I even met one guy who's of the same age as me but lived a FAR DIFFERENT life. But we're only one month different. I don't know whether to believe him but he didn't look like he was kidding although he really know how to put on a poker face.

Even at this point, my character seems to want to PLEASE people often as possible to get out of negative and trouble. I'm scared of that it seems. Feeling like today won't be that smooth but I'll try to remain positive about it.

I just realized it's been a month, and I've yet to set my resolution. I must really be exhausted and sleepy and too pre-occupied with nonsense inside my mind. So here's what I've thought through so far:

1. Lose weight.
2. Be happier.
3. Find my calling.
4. Go on a roadtrip with my closest friends.