Doing and deciding things not because you were told...

If only I studied, I might have scored better...

If only I had gone through this, I might have done wonderfully...

If only I had put more effort here, I wouldn't be struggling...

These are the thoughts that always ran through my mind. It shows how much I'm regretting my past and always looking back. I had no time to think about myself and feel angry, happy about things.

It's this very thought that I feel that I'm neglecting and always scared of the future. I shouldn't be. There are things I'll learn and I need to try. If I don't I might regret not doing it. And that's why I need to feel more confident in myself.

Karyn's going to come over tomorrow night for an overnight! It's been a while and maybe because I felt down in the dumps after realizing how I just screwed my Chemistry Paper 2. I did lost hope in it but I'm angry over a trivial mistake I've made which could have been avoided had I look at it properly.

But over is over! I can only practice precaution next time and not get overly too confident in my calculations!